March 6th...all I could do is laugh

Yes, I do have break downs every now and then. Thursday was one of those days. It has been a really rough week. Russ has been dealing with a lot of issues. I have been trying to help him talk through them. Sam is also being a teenager and with that comes a lot of crying. My 3 boys are being well...BOYS. I am trying to decide what to do with our house. I am trying to exercise and figure out how to loose the baby weight. With all of this I had just had one of the "God I can't do any thing else moments". A good friend happened to give me a call and she said many nice things and helped me through my moment, but I also broke down and cried. The phone conversation got over and I went about my day. A few hours later I went to Gage's speech class. When you get to the building you have to check in and get a badge. The secretary gave me a funny look and said "Honey I don't mean to embarrass you but you have makeup running all down your face. The bathroom is over there." All I could do is laugh, Gage look at me and said Mom why are you laughing? I look at the secretary and said, well now you know I have been crying all day! Then I went to the bathroom and took care of my black face. The really sad thing is between the phone call and the speech class my neighbor came over to give me some stuff to mail to Russ. I talked to her for a little while and she never said anything. But she acted very strange and keep asking me if I was OK and if there was anything she could do. Now I know why, I looked like a freak.